Maunderings

[adelagia]

A kind soul left a very complimentary comment on one of my Bradley/Colin fics on AO3 today, which got me to reading a couple of my old Merlin fics. There is something so strange about knowing with a hundred percent certainty you strung all those words together into a story and yet thinking, omg I wrote that?, because some of it was actually quite good?? And yet if I were to sit down and write that very same story today, it might well suck a big toe. Is it because I'm out of practice -- after all, in my most active days of fandom, I'd churned out something like a fic a month, and now I put out a story once a year, if that -- or did I already peak as a writer several years ago without anyone telling me?

I'm not necessarily looking for an answer; the thought just comes up every so often. And I do cycle through periods where the last thing I wrote is what I consider my best, and then a few months later, I reread it and think it's hot garbage, and then several months (or years) after that, on further reread, think perhaps it might be a worthy effort after all.

So I guess what this all means is that my opinion can't be trusted. Oop.

Comments

[merlocked18.livejournal.com]

your fics are top-notch and really made me think about how epic and awesome the writing in the merlin fandom is. Please, never give up writing. YOU wrote all that goodness, it's in YOU. Never give up writing. I need more Colin/Bradley, too, now that you mentioned it.
Much love,
Merls (who apparently is an merlin fan artist nowadays, but being an avid reader will never go away)

[adelagia.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the vote of confidence, love <3 I didn't know you did fan art! I'll have to check it out!! :))

[merlocked18.livejournal.com]

<3